Monday, July 24, 2017

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Created in the image of God!

"The God of the Bible is a God that says that the world can be based on love, that it can be based on caring–love your neighbor and love the stranger–that the world can go in that direction, that that can happen. And not because of some transcendence of all that is but because the fundamental spiritual reality of the universe is that it is pervaded with love and goodness. And if you are a realized human being or moving in that direction, then your test is to be a witness to that possibility, to be a partner with God in the healing and transformation of the world. This is what it means to say that human beings are created in the image of God: We are meant to be partners, and our task is to actualize more of the goodness and love in the universe and to recognize the world as potentially transformable."

-- Rabbi Michael Lerner, in an interview with Michael Cohen.

June Raymond, a sister of Notre Dame, explaining why she remains a Christian despite the negative and limiting things about the system, says: “It obviously is not because I love the institution. On the whole I don’t, but the rest of it as well as its shadow is part of me and in this strange mystery of Christ I find my deepest being and a way back to the truths that transform and offer meaning and hope.”

The fortune and the psychic!

If you allow it to, love can make people go crazy! Here is one such instance. I doubted the authenticity of the story, but upon further more browsing, I HAD to believe...that it happened for real!

Friday, July 14, 2017

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Anthropocentricity!

It is amazing that we should be so sensitive to suicide, homicide, and genocide and have absolutely no moral principles for dealing with biocide or geocide. Over-concerned with the well-being of the human, we feel it is better that everything is destroyed than that humans suffer to any degree.

Thomas Berry

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Stuck!

You will know it when you are!

Look outside!

I guess, we are often being given this advice of "Look within" at the current juncture when we are increasingly becoming empty within. That is the paradox of today. While change has to start from within, that change is often not sufficient for most of the real world problems today. Mind you, I'm NOT saying internal management is not needed. I'm saying, while that change IS needed, that change is often NOT sufficient.

When the problem is created due to external circumstances, managing oneself internally forever not only amounts to adapting oneself to change but sometimes also to changing oneself to fit into an inappropriate system or environment. It's not just changing, but derailing from one's ideal or optimum self.

So while I appreciate self-help advice such as these where help comes from assessing internal factors, I wonder why there is not enough focus these days on assessing the external factors. True, there might not be enough control or power to change the external environment one is in. But sometimes one needs to realize that it is NOT always possible to change oneself beyond a certain limit! The next alternative then is to shift to a different environment.

It will be wrong if the capacity of a fish is assessed based on how high it can fly or if  the capacity of a bird is assessed based on how far it can swim. Neither of them can do the other's job. They are best in their own environments. These are examples that starkly bring out the incapacity of the beings in inappropriate environments. Unfortunately, the real world scenarios are NOT this direct and we are often lost adapting ourselves to systems we NEED NOT fit into! We would rather do better elsewhere!

And it need NOT always be shifting to a different environment. Sometimes our assertiveness in NOT adapting to a system also brings the essential change in a system which remained stagnant for long, just because the actors operating within it did not care to feed it back honest responses.

I can go on and on, but I hope you are getting my point. I would have loved to depict it through a picture, but I'm absolutely in no mood to put those efforts to create one! But for the technically inclined, I can go ahead and explain it through more text in technical terms. Let's say a couple of components, say X, Y and Z are interacting faultily in a system. And let's say you are responsible for "managing" one component A. Now, let's say the owners of components X, Y and Z are complaining that component A is sending incorrect responses all the while. Would you try and fix component A to send the responses X, Y and Z "want" or would you check that maybe A is sending responses as it should, but the fault could actually be with other components' expectations? Or sometimes, the fault could be on both the sides and all the components might have to be altered.

While we might be intelligent enough to think properly when it comes to such problems in the technological world , in real world we are being forced to incline more towards "internal management" and that always might not be the complete solution. I'm sure you got my point by this time... So go ahead and look outside so that you give somebody else a chance to do their "internal management" instead of you banging your head at it, doing it alone and aloof all the time...so that you do NOT foster a system that is tough on most of the people...a system that most of the people are unhappy with! Because systemic changes are waiting!

Friday, July 7, 2017

Oh Man! Look Back!

You don't even have to turn back, just look back!



Thursday, July 6, 2017

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Light at the end of the tunnel!

So I wrote about two years ago - "There is no light at the end of the tunnel. It's a mirror!" So, what then do I mean by saying just the opposite now? Obviously, breaking of that mirror and shattering the illusion of the tunnel...would mean the light at the end of that seemingly never-ending tunnel.

I don't know when that mirror breaks or wait maybe I know... Generally it is felt that when the light outweighs the dark...when that theoretical 51% is reached...that is when the mirror might break. So, I don't know when that happens...it happens when it happens. But to me, light at the end of the tunnel, for this lifetime, means that I'm not waiting for a specific result and am good with whichever path is thrown open to me.

There was a point when I was waiting for PoE (Precession of Equinoxes) to happen. Then eventually it dawned upon me that it's such a big event and is dependant on the karma of humanity and earth. After all, why should I be waiting for it? When the time is ripe for it, when the Earth needs it and is able to attain it, when the karma of Humanity is fulfilled, it will happen anyway! What stake do I have in it, as a person here on Earth? Maybe my higher self has more stake in it, but I'm not bothered. This journey is all about aligning this human self with its higher self, but as long as I do not have the capacities of that higher self, I'm not bothered...I thought!

And there was a point, when I was waiting to hear from my twin flame. It's not that he should come and marry me like a knight in shining armour and end all my hardships. That he too had felt the connection, was enough for me to hear from him. Whether or not it can be taken forward, was a later thing. I could tell it to my family and my situation would make sense to them too, to certain extent and I could have escaped some embarrassing moments. But again, I eventually started realizing that had he wanted to do that, he would have done that long ago. But he didn't. Either he has never felt the connection the way I felt it, or he felt it, but is not interested to take it forward or there must be some really genuine reasons stopping him from expressing himself. Though my logical mind could think of those three possibilities, I never felt like thinking about the first two options. My mind would just blank out whenever I wanted to extrapolate those two possibilities a bit more.

Yeah, my mind would allow me to think about the third possibility. While I can roughly guess the reasons, I still felt it was unfair that he was allowing me to go through this. I totally understand that he did not open up, way back in 2012 when I just started understanding the connection. I just started awakening, after almost 12 years of he sensing the connection (that's my intuition speaking, when my awakening process first started), so it was only wise on his part to have allowed me to experience it further. But how long must that continue? It's been more than five years now. Was it not enough time for me to understand things so that awakening can be discussed? Yes things have changed with time at both the ends! And it might not always be easy to open up. But what about me? Within these biological and sociological constraints of human life, how was I to answer my family, society and most importantly my own self?

If the information I sensed through awakening was right, he had already been on this journey 12 years ahead of me. That would have been very painstaking to say the least. And I wouldn't expect twin flames to play the tit-for-tat game of "I suffered, so you too suffer!", not my twin flame atleast. Yeah, maybe a bit of it, for some time, but definitely I wouldn't see that as some long-term avenging process. I had always felt that there must be some valid reasons for my twin flame to shut down and run away from communicating with me openly.

But gradually, 'why did my twin flame do this or that?' started becoming irrelevant for me. The wait was eating me at many levels and I realized I was waiting at the cost of my own peace. This was not turning out to be healthy and I started wondering what was this Ascension turning me into. What was it making of me, of him and the rest of the twin flames? I doubted if we were we really evolving into better persons at any level, at all. The more I kept waiting, the more I hated him and myself, both. I had to definitely move on and meanwhile my parents constantly (and obviously) brought the prospect of marriage in front of me. This made things worse and honestly for a long time I was not able to figure out what is it that I wanted.

Once I told myself I was not waiting for my twin flame, I started meeting a few people (the process was happening on a low key before too, but now I too really wanted to genuinely give it a try!) as part of the same old arranged marriage setup in India. But it brought the nightmares back. I never liked anybody in a sense that I could say ok for marriage. But I wonder how many people in India really get to like the person before marriage if that was an arranged one. Again it brought me back the pain of assessing if I was still waiting for my twin flame. Honestly, I could never figure it out, to this day. Maybe, maybe not. Maybe, I haven't come across the right person. And maybe, there is never a right one if you already have a person on mind. Mostly, I used to keep quiet without taking the responsibility of saying yes or no and wait for something really wrong to happen and most of the times that approach worked. But not for long. Once, it really went bad...no point going into the details, but it so happened that I had to come to some clarity at any cost. I felt I was nowhere close to that so-called clarity yet I saw myself telling it out to the guy that I wasn't interested. I was not sure what I was doing with my life, but I never regretted any of what I did with these alliances. But I was not happy either about the way I was leading my life.

Strangely, I never had to go through the painful process of thinking too much. My mind just blanked out whenever I wanted to think, analyze, arrive at some clarity and decide. So I never decided anything and just drifted with the flow, if there was any at all!

And there was this constant surfacing up of divergence, repulsion, conflict, whatever you call it, with my family. I had already discussed this in the post - "If they could, they would!" I guess, whatever I wrote there is only one side of the coin. The other side is that, if I was evolved and matured enough I too could have averted a lot of conflict and dealt the situations amicably...in fact most of them would not even arise. Most of the conflict surfaced up when the energy field was disastrous inside me. Even after getting aware of this, the awareness did not help me in anyway. I used to helplessly stare at myself being emotionally upset and tell my family how they were hurting me and get hurt more due to the discussions thereof. I knew there was no point yet I did it all.

I slowly started realizing all this awareness and wisdom was not enough. Per se, it cannot transform into implementation and execution of things. It needs to be backed by spiritual strength, which I was lacking. I was lacking the balance. Frequency mismatch was causing all the conflict and unless I stabilized myself this was going to continue, I finally understood. I cannot expect my family to rise along with me, I had to rise alone...I came to terms with it. I cannot expect my twin flame to bring me balance. I had to work on it myself.

Time and again, I touch the disaster point and I don't regret posting things like "Chaos", "Alert" then. I don't feel like I'm making a fool out of myself. I've been suffering in nothingness and it is only natural that I keep oscillating around the 'disaster point' or the 'now point' (whichever way you want to perceive it). I keep hitting the now point, my consciousness touches it...the world around me might not be able to perceive it...the world's consciousness might not be at that point...but that wouldn't alter my reality inside...my energy and consciousness inside.

I don't know if I'm finally reaching the end of this tunnel, though it "feels" like that now. But I definitely know that the journey so far has given me the resilience needed to traverse whatever is left over. How much ever that is!

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Chaos

When there is nothing, it is a chaos. But when it is a chaos, can there be nothing?

Monday, June 19, 2017

The Rapture!!

The knot of nothing has been ruptured. The Mother has awakened from Her deep slumber. She has started flowing, burning and melting away the abyss. It has arrived and it can't be reversed....

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Future!


Killing time!

When you are unable to live, unable to die, you can go sleeping...day and night alike. A time-tested alternative, it is! I don't know, but I'm guessing it works better than drinking, drugs and other such dark habits on the list...

Friday, June 2, 2017

We're getting out!

That's what Trump said and this is what some of the US citizens had to say!


Desire

"Without a sense of urgency, desire loses its value." -- Jim Rohn.

Friday, May 19, 2017

When they finally meet!

"Dream and Destiny are two separate dimensions of life but it would be a fantastic combination when they finally meet " ..... 🌞..... Suprabhat

Somebody sent me this message today. They made my day!

Thursday, May 11, 2017

If they could, they would!

They should have dealt it all better. They should have treated you better. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.

For all that you have been for them in life, for the way you treated them, they should have understood you. They should have empathised with you, or at least sympathised with you (though that would do you no good)! They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.

For the long past you share with them, they should have tried not to hurt your feelings by making inappropriate comparisons. For your journey was different from others'. They could never understand the void you are experiencing in your life, but at least they should have tried NOT to deepen that void. They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.

In the times you needed them the most, they should have been your go-to point to hide from yourself. They shouldn't have made you feel, it is them you should run away from, first, to find some peace of mind. When all that you had to cherish, was your past, they should have not forgotten it. Instead of ridiculing your present, they should have used your past to boost you in the present. They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.

They would never accept that they hurt you. Every time you want to explain the hurt and the grief they are causing you because of their inability to understand you, they blame you hurt them. And maybe you did. You are open to that possibility. Your awareness and your willingness to mend yourself only leads you to adjust more. They are not even ready to listen to your grief, then how can they act on it, to reduce their share in it?

All that matters to them is to defend themselves, that they did NOT cause you any grief and blame you that you caused grief in their lives. Your feelings, your grief, your pain, your agony...it all goes down the gutters. You are supposed to handle it yourself. They have nothing to do with it whether or not they have played any part in it. But you do understand the grief and hurt you are causing them. You should never discuss things with them and expect their participation to ease the tension in life. They are not game for it, you gradually understand this. So you slowly reduce the time you spend with them, you reduce the conversations with them, you try and reduce the interaction with them. You try and learn to stay alone even when you are sharing a life with them. You try your best to expect the least from them.

But after all it's a family. How much ever you try, life throws up some or the other situation that demands interaction at an emotional level with them.

Their words hurt you. The way they respond to your feelings hurt you. The way they take you and your agony easy hurts you. The way they respect their own time yet kill your time leaving you to yourself to unfold the cobwebs they too wove, hurts you. This slow death inside you, sharing a life with an incompatible family, is it any better than somebody raping you?

At least, somebody has crossed the line there. Culprits are clear. Here, there are no visible enemies. No visible abuse. Only deep wounds and scars invisible to everybody, but you. They are right in their way and you are right in your own. No point, discussing things from the stand point of right and wrong. But who will heal your decaying self? How long can you take this ordeal?

Divorcing a spouse is much easier than divorcing a family, you finally feel!


Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Fantasy!

It is ok to be in a fantasy, but it's important to know and remember that it has only been a fantasy!

On top of the world!

I said I'mma be on top of the world, didn't I? ;-)

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

How long?

Ever since, I wrote that post on funny translation of telugu lyrics, I thought I must give the serious translation a try. So let's see how it goes...

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How long will this devilish morality prevail, won't the time ask?
Won't in your heart, the fearless flame of truth blaze into an inferno? (repeat!)

Don't you assume that only woman is etched with flaws (or is the weaker gender by default)!
When she unleashes the goddess within, is there a way to stop her?

And don't you think that the sins you committed will help you sail!
The day your sins ripen, your days will be numbered!

(......... The above stanzas repeat again .........)

How long will this devilish law prevail, won't the time ask?

The mother and the sister who are part of your daily life, are women too like us, aren't they?
Why can't you perceive in us, the same goodness you perceive in them? Can't you?

Those heartless hearts that attack and ask for the flesh, just because they are thirsty,
They truly deserve to be burnt...that's justice, any sane woman would say and believe!
Further on, she will fight destiny or anything that spirals to consume her!

How long will this devilish law prevail, won't the time ask?
Won't in your heart, the fearless flame of truth blaze into an inferno?

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The one-liner gist: "No matter what the sin is, it can't sustain long, truth will eventually prevail and whatever is just will conquer!"


Optimism




Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Translation! Pure translation, that is!

I don't usually read my own blog, but I was in some mood for it today. So, I was just browsing through my blog entries from the last posted one till the point I reached this post on a Telugu song's lyrics. So the google translation very proactively prompted on my mobile if it could be of some help...translate the Telugu lyrics into English for me. I said "No" and went ahead to read the post. Something transpired in my mind and I felt why not translate it and see how it turns out. So I asked it now to help me...but it couldn't! "Oh this! For all your proactivity!" I thought. But again, a beautiful idea struck me and I converted the view to show me the web version and then asked google to offer its translation and show me its prowess! And the result?!? Breathtaking! Telugu readers! Enjoy!!!

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how long the demon will not ask for justice for a long time? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity? 
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity? 

Lopalanni world, women unnayanukoku! If the available energy to stop? 
Nitodunnayanukukoku sins that you are! Rojoccindante season running on you! 

Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity? 
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity? 

Lopalanni world, women unnayanukoku! If the available energy to stop? 
Nitodunnayanukukoku sins that you are! Rojoccindante season running on you! 

Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity? 

Nitoti day of the mother, sisters, and she is not adalle? Is it not? 
Vallandarilonu your eyes see nothing but the best, cullenannaya us? Or not? 

That thirst for heart attacks and give the body, cremate each viriboni nammindira virtue is! 
Sudinaina against vidhinaina anymore !!! 

Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
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LOL! Was so hilarious! Especially the line "That thirst for heart attacks..."... I had to laugh my stomach out there!

Saturday, April 15, 2017

The Bertha Breakthrough!



Detailed story here!

Dreaming awake!

"To destroy the stereotypes of the usual worldview, in order to break free from the box of conditionality and to wake up in the dream, you are dreaming awake." Vadim Zealand.

Friday, April 14, 2017

Man and Science!

Science can and should take us to a place where we exclaim 'how wonderful creation is'.” Laura Smith.

"Even beyond the threat of nuclear warfare, I think, the ecological crisis is the greatest threat mankind collectively has ever faced... My hypothesis is that man is hampered in his meeting of this environmental crisis by a severe and pervasive apathy which is based largely upon feelings and attitudes of which he is unconscious." Harold Searles.


Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Saturday, April 1, 2017

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Cleanliness is next to Godliness!

Indians believe in spiritual purity and atleast superficially revere this proverb. But unfortunately India is suffering from this malaise of uncleanliness especially due to laid-back lethargic Indian mindset. It needs the so-called paradigmatic shift in Indian mindsets to actually realize 'Swacch Bharat".

Today, as I was trying to delete some stuff from my mobile and make some space for some art I was about to click, I bumped into this video. It totally slipped out of my notice when it was sent...

video

Monday, March 27, 2017

You turn!

I don't know why the Universe throws this U-Turn thing a number of times, so I thought I'd post it anyway. It might be of some help to somebody out there who is on the fork or crossroads!



Sunday, March 26, 2017

Lie

Perhaps, happiness is the truth, while grief and sorrow are illusions. And maybe it's all only a matter of time!

But we spend a lot of time living a lie. That's the inevitable norm for humans.

Monday, March 20, 2017

Tryst with the past!


While you enjoy this tryst with the past, take this quiz on that ever flowing thing! My score - 7/10...actually 9/10 would be a decent score for this quiz.

Monday, March 13, 2017

Redemption!

One's past can be someone else's future! Or it need not be...it's a matter of both chance and choice!




Thursday, March 9, 2017

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Adventure!



Or even the worst mistake ever! But either ways, it's going to cost "some" time!

Friday, February 24, 2017

Monday, February 20, 2017

Advertisements!

Advertisements are usually fun to watch, though the message they seem to convey, seems totally unrelated to the product they are intended to promote. This advertisement really caught my attention...it was well made.

Another ad, which I thorougly enjoyed in the recent times was this Asian Paint Ad.


Karma


LOL! Couldn't stop laughing at it, for about a minute...

Well, that word reminds me of a movie I saw a week ago. There is this Telugu movie "Karma" which I never heard of, until I saw the advertisement on TV one fine day, that it was going to be telecast the next day. Missed the movie on TV, but made up for it on internet. I usually ensure that I don't read anything about the movie before I watch it, if one of its promo/trailer/song/lyrics/dialogues (why all that? some times even name of the movie) that doesn't give away much, inspires me to watch it. Same was the case with this too. And I was pleasantly surprised. I have only one thing to say - that was a very bold attempt by Adavi Sesh, especially given that was his first movie as a director, hero and writer way back in 2010...And lo, we all...I mean the keen Telugu audience started to hear about this guy only since Baahubali I guess (that was the case with me at least...I came to know about his background...his flair for movies, his stint in US through one of his newspaper interviews). His other movie, "Kshanam" too was a pretty fine movie.

Friday, February 17, 2017

I'm a Tidsoptimist!

Yeah, I always knew that...that I am a Tidsoptimist!!! (21st word there!) Just that I got aware of this word only today.

I have this weird inkling not to be too early for anything. Like I feel, why turn up early and waste time, I could do something else in the mean time! What is weird is, I'd be ready to take the repercussions of being late, but I'd never be really interested to take the risk of being early. What is weirder is, despite knowing I'm a Tidsoptimist, I never feel that I should change and become time sensitive...rightly acting on time. I'm not just a Tidsoptimist but a little more than that...somebody who dislikes being early.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Miracles

I wonder if there is any such thing as a 'miracle'...the way we human beings refer to it...

Because I'm getting to realize that behind such miracles, there's usually some real effort and will...to make them happen.

Sunday, February 5, 2017

Reality? Really?



This is really awesome! Taking the Wikipedia's entry on Augmented Reality and applying the definitions on this video makes one naturally wonder - does AR augment the reality or diminish the reality? Does AR enhance one's current perception of reality or corrupt it?

Great video indeed! Like the climax...with AR even the destination to God cannot be real! Once you enter it, there's no escape...not at least through it (when it is offering you the exit), until there's an external intervention.

When the physical and virtual realities merge, would the product be still a reality? I'm just wondering!

Back-to-back Fire Effect!

Now, that's how I'm trying to explain you a scenario wherein a person who is "observing" another person "experience" a backfire effect, experiences that backfire effect backfire on him/her because his observation process backfired on him.

Hmm, confusing? How do I explain you that? Yeah! Take this write-up for instance. At one point, the editor, the Chief Science Officer of U.S.S PopSci, says - "We know that writing about science and tech for everyone means writing about science and tech for folks who might not always like the facts we present to them." The author also states at another point - "...how I felt about the challenge of convincing readers that facts were facts and fiction was fiction." She also quotes a psychologist - "A man with a conviction is a hard man to change. Tell him you disagree and he turns away. Show him facts or figures and he questions your sources. Appeal to logic and he fails to see your point."

But, there's another side to this! Aren't scientists too people with conviction? A conviction that whatever is validated by science is a fact!!! That is what I believe is called Scientism...What if Science backfires on them? That is the Back-to-back Fire Effect I was talking about in the beginning of the article!

Now, what is fact, what is fiction...only time will tell, not science!

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Ghatana movie - Ennaallee raakshasa neethi? - Telugu song lyrics!

So I happened to watch this telugu movie - "Ghatana" - yesterday. After the movie, I just wanted to browse on it, but was surprised to see there is no wikipedia entry for this movie! No good site to download songs from and refer to lyrics either! Since I really liked the end credits song and wanted to practice the same, I thought I'd jot down the lyrics in my own blog. Even the song audio which is available online is slightly different from the actual song in the movie. I liked the version in the movie, so I thought if somebody is looking for lyrics, this entry might come handy!

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ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?
ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?

లోకంలో లోపాలన్నీ, స్త్రీకే ఉన్నాయనుకోకు! లోపలున్న శక్తిని తీస్తే ఆపే వీలుందా ?
నువు చేసే పాపాలన్నీ నీతోడున్నాయనుకుకోకు! పండే రోజొచ్చిందంటే మన్నే నీ మీద!

ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?
ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?

లోకంలో లోపాలన్నీ, స్త్రీకే ఉన్నాయనుకోకు! లోపలున్న శక్తిని తీస్తే ఆపే వీలుందా ?
నువు చేసే పాపాలన్నీ నీతోడున్నాయనుకుకోకు! పండే రోజొచ్చిందంటే మన్నే నీ మీద!

ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?

రోజూ నీతోటి ఉండే అమ్మా చెల్లెళ్ళు, మాలా ఆడాళ్లే కాదా ? కాదా?
వాళ్లందరిలోనూ మంచే  చూసే నీ కళ్ళు , మాలో చూళ్లేనన్నాయా ? లేదా ?

దాహం ఉందని దేహం ఇమ్మని దాడులు చేసే హృదయాన్ని , దహనం చేయుటే  ధర్మం అన్నది  నమ్మిందిర ప్రతి విరిబోణి !
ఇకపైనా విధినైనా ఎదిరించే సుడినైనా !!!

ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?






Sunday, January 15, 2017

Done!

I don't know about what rest of the people awakening in the world are undergoing, but if I have to summarise my experience for the past two years, I'd say I've been swinging between Existence and Non-existence.

All along, starting 2012, I've been trying to sail on both the boats...the world the way it is now and the world that is waiting to emerge. Of course, I had to be on the first boat - the world the way it is now -because that is where I started from. I cannot get off it until the second boat is balanced for the sail ahead. But then, I need to keep one leg on the second boat much ahead even before it is balanced, so that I can catch it when the time is ripe for it. At the same time, it is very important that I let go of that first boat, when I have to.

Now Existence and Non-Existence must not be equated with the two boats. Now these are entirely two different set of things. Swaying between these two is no fun and experiencing Non-existence while we exist in this materialistic form, in the confines of this human body is an experience beyond words. Meditation helps only at times. But sometimes it feels like a powerful beam of ionized particles gushing through the body in a sinusoidal form, its peak touching the head as if a ghost is holding the head. And when it happens continuously for four days, there's no choice but to surrender and succumb to the intensity and lay down like a corpse with no will power to do anything.

This happened many times before in these two years, but when this happened during the last four days it evoked a deeper need to take its expression. Self-worth! I finally understood I'm done with it. I'm done with the waiting for my twin flame, I finally understood this. I've been feeling this for years, but finally I am able to take the plunge. The circumstances that led to this need no elaboration here. But, I now know it's time to move on. Thanks Twin Flame for being the trigger for many lessons in my life.


Saturday, January 14, 2017

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Friday, January 6, 2017

That Generation Gap!

So there was this Digg Newsfeed - "Imagine A World Where Gen X-ers Love Millennials".

While I agree that every generation keeps complaining about its next generation, there is certainly a sudden shift between the generations on the either side of the millennium. While every generation goes ahead of its previous one in some or the other way, the current generation seems to have taken a giant leap from where its previous generation stood. If the sheer acceleration of the next generation invites a complaining trait from its predecessors, it's no wonder that the Gen-Xers tend to dislike or even hate Millennials especially in those instances where the latter made their lives complicated.

Even when it comes to the Parent-Child relationship between these two generations, while the 'love' element still remains, perhaps the Gen X-ers are proud of their Millenial children more due to their own hard work they invested on them rather than due to the accomplishments of the latter. Yeah, I know I generalised it there. But just saying...in general terms...that generation gap this one time seems to be pretty wide.

Monday, January 2, 2017

Post-truth!

Now, it seems that's the Oxford Word of 2016!

I opened 'The Hindu' after a long time*. Specifically 'Sunday Magazine' was my favourite during my Engineering days. So, I opened that. But, my head and stomach went dizzy when I saw the content all bombarding one thing - "The post-truth"! Like there were so many titles on 'truth' itself! The first article in the front page gave a lead to other articles in the inner pages! (There was a reference to 'post-truth era' in the first article!)

  • 'The year we reinvented the truth'
  • 'Truth through many tasks'
  • 'Truth in the selfie era'
  • 'You need politics to discover truth' 

Now, what on earth does that mean? Have we all realized the Truth already, at least most of us? And are we grappling with the aftermath of Truth? (Now, I don't mean there's just one big Truth out there...like TRUTH...used it that way just for the ease of it!) I, on the other hand feel most of us haven't realised the essential truths of these times and are hence leading distorted lives. So, I got curious and went ahead to know what it was all about. Just started going through the first article and the content felt really heavy. The article felt more like a show-case of author's vocabulary and his grip on big concepts. Was it because I lost touch with the paper that I started to feel that way or was the article really written in a deviant way...I don't know, but I had no mood whatsoever to go through other articles. So, I stopped with the first one abruptly! (Infact, the titles themselves were so repelling. When I saw the fourth title, I asked myself, "Really? Did I read it right? Was it 'distort' or 'discover'? Or was that sarcasm?)

If you too feel the same way going through the first write-up, don't trouble yourselves much. This sentence will more or less explain what the author means by 'post-truth' - "If Brexit signalled the post-truth era, Donald Trump’s victory was its definitive arrival."

Whatever that 'post-truth' was supposed to mean, for now, like many others before me, I'm disillusioned with the word 'truth', so I will stop here and allow you to explore further as per your interest and energy. But, if you haven't already come across this word, I'd like to take credit for introducing that to you! That was all today's post meant to do! :-)

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*I stopped reading 'The Hindu' or for that matter any sort of news since last August. Information was not interesting any more to me. It was all the same...knowing it or not knowing it didn't matter. My Dad started complaining, "Nobody reads the paper these days. It goes into the racks just the way it arrives! And nobody even cares to keep the paper in the racks at the end of the day. It just keeps piling on sofa, if I stop caring about it! I will stop the paper!" He says he is addressing that to everybody (including himself), but those statements only hit me (my brothers just ignore it as usual) and I respond - "Now Dad, for God's sake, please don't start complaining as if a kid has stopped doing her homework! I'm older than that and I will read it if I really want to read it anyway! And you are not going to stop paper even if nobody is reading it. How many times should I explain my logic? We spend a thousand easily when we go out for lunch, so why not some 250/- on newspaper for a month! Even if I gain one important piece of information a month, the cost that goes into it is justified. For instance that piece of info the other day on Nagarjunsagar being part of....."

Infact, once before that my Dad even stopped the paper. I was like how can anybody in the home be so indifferent to my words and needs. I blackmailed them - "Whichever home I reside at, will get 'The Hindu'. I'm not gonna stay here if you stop the paper. Tell me, should I leave this house so that I can realize my basic freedom to newspaper?" I then got the paper reinstated!




Sunday, January 1, 2017

The Killer Energy!

I think I have spoken quite many times about void and disaster energy already in my blog. But the energy I have been experiencing since the past two months seems to differ a bit. Since I don't maintain any journal apart from this blog, I don't exactly remember when it started and what has been its periodicity. But I can say that the quality of the energy has changed quite a bit.

When I experience this phase, I experience tremendous amount of self-pity and also a lot of grief...infact as if the whole grief of the world is on my shoulders. I cry inconsolably for my state and I can just weep like that non-stop, for say at least ten minutes, as if my heart is poring itself out with no bounds. Weeping used to happen before too, once in a while, but then it wasn't with this kind of intensity. Weeping perhaps brought me solace before, but the weeping of late, feels more like inconsolable vent out.

I gradually realised that during such a phase the energy craves for non-existence. I just don't feel like existing during such phases and I absolutely feel like dying. It's just that I cannot gather my will power to commit such an act, but if I do have will power I might as well commit that. Such would be the grief during those times. I think such is the paradox of that situation...it is due to lack of an integrating spirit and will power that I experience such grief and pain and it is that very deficit which does not allow me to deal with grief and pain in a systematic way. I feel like all parts of me are so disintegrated that I don't feel myself actually. I feel myself more as a spectator of myself, than as my own self...if that makes any sense!

But then, I'm sure you would recollect that most of the features in the last para - like the sensation of dying etc, I had already mentioned that I was experiencing during void and disaster energy phases. But the intensity of this seems to be too much, of late. Sure! I must also mention that I have been experiencing phases of normalcy - peace and calmness as such without any explicit accomplishments - more than ever these days...but when such phases of disaster energy recur, the killer energy is certainly going for the kill. It's becoming quite a nightmare to experience this.

The normalcy is feeling better and better and the killer energy getting worser and worser. I'm just waiting for this (-> recurrence of killer-energy phase) to end soon!