Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Ghatana movie - Ennaallee raakshasa neethi? - Telugu song lyrics!

So I happened to watch this telugu movie - "Ghatana" - yesterday. After the movie, I just wanted to browse on it, but was surprised to see there is no wikipedia entry for this movie! No good site to download songs from and refer to lyrics either! Since I really liked the end credits song and wanted to practice the same, I thought I'd jot down the lyrics in my own blog. Even the song audio which is available online is slightly different from the actual song in the movie. I liked the version in the movie, so I thought if somebody is looking for lyrics, this entry might come handy!

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ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?
ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?

లోకంలో లోపాలన్నీ, స్త్రీకే ఉన్నాయనుకోకు! లోపలున్న శక్తిని తీస్తే ఆపే వీలుందా ?
నువు చేసే పాపాలన్నీ నీతోడున్నాయనుకుకోకు! పండే రోజొచ్చిందంటే మన్నే నీ మీద!

ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?
ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?

లోకంలో లోపాలన్నీ, స్త్రీకే ఉన్నాయనుకోకు! లోపలున్న శక్తిని తీస్తే ఆపే వీలుందా ?
నువు చేసే పాపాలన్నీ నీతోడున్నాయనుకుకోకు! పండే రోజొచ్చిందంటే మన్నే నీ మీద!

ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?

రోజూ నీతోటి ఉండే అమ్మా చెల్లెళ్ళు, మాలా ఆడాళ్లే కాదా ? కాదా?
వాళ్లందరిలోనూ మంచే  చూసే నీ కళ్ళు , మాలో చూళ్లేనన్నాయా ? లేదా ?

దాహం ఉందని దేహం ఇమ్మని దాడులు చేసే హృదయాన్ని , దహనం చేయుటే  ధర్మం అన్నది  నమ్మిందిర ప్రతి విరిబోణి !
ఇకపైనా విధినైనా ఎదిరించే సుడినైనా !!!

ఎన్నాళ్ళీ రాక్షస నీతి కాలం అడగదా ? గుండె నుండి నిర్భయ జ్యోతి జ్వాలై రగలదా ?






Sunday, January 15, 2017

Done!

I don't know about what rest of the people awakening in the world are undergoing, but if I have to summarise my experience for the past two years, I'd say I've been swinging between Existence and Non-existence.

All along, starting 2012, I've been trying to sail on both the boats...the world the way it is now and the world that is waiting to emerge. Of course, I had to be on the first boat - the world the way it is now -because that is where I started from. I cannot get off it until the second boat is balanced for the sail ahead. But then, I need to keep one leg on the second boat much ahead even before it is balanced, so that I can catch it when the time is ripe for it. At the same time, it is very important that I let go of that first boat, when I have to.

Now Existence and Non-Existence must not be equated with the two boats. Now these are entirely two different set of things. Swaying between these two is no fun and experiencing Non-existence while we exist in this materialistic form, in the confines of this human body is an experience beyond words. Meditation helps only at times. But sometimes it feels like a powerful beam of ionized particles gushing through the body in a sinusoidal form, its peak touching the head as if a ghost is holding the head. And when it happens continuously for four days, there's no choice but to surrender and succumb to the intensity and lay down like a corpse with no will power to do anything.

This happened many times before in these two years, but when this happened during the last four days it evoked a deeper need to take its expression. Self-worth! I finally understood I'm done with it. I'm done with the waiting for my twin flame, I finally understood this. I've been feeling this for years, but finally I am able to take the plunge. The circumstances that led to this need no elaboration here. But, I now know it's time to move on. Thanks Twin Flame for being the trigger for many lessons in my life.


Saturday, January 14, 2017

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Friday, January 6, 2017

That Generation Gap!

So there was this Digg Newsfeed - "Imagine A World Where Gen X-ers Love Millennials".

While I agree that every generation keeps complaining about its next generation, there is certainly a sudden shift between the generations on the either side of the millennium. While every generation goes ahead of its previous one in some or the other way, the current generation seems to have taken a giant leap from where its previous generation stood. If the sheer acceleration of the next generation invites a complaining trait from its predecessors, it's no wonder that the Gen-Xers tend to dislike or even hate Millennials especially in those instances where the latter made their lives complicated.

Even when it comes to the Parent-Child relationship between these two generations, while the 'love' element still remains, perhaps the Gen X-ers are proud of their Millenial children more due to their own hard work they invested on them rather than due to the accomplishments of the latter. Yeah, I know I generalised it there. But just saying...in general terms...that generation gap this one time seems to be pretty wide.

Monday, January 2, 2017

Post-truth!

Now, it seems that's the Oxford Word of 2016!

I opened 'The Hindu' after a long time*. Specifically 'Sunday Magazine' was my favourite during my Engineering days. So, I opened that. But, my head and stomach went dizzy when I saw the content all bombarding one thing - "The post-truth"! Like there were so many titles on 'truth' itself! The first article in the front page gave a lead to other articles in the inner pages! (There was a reference to 'post-truth era' in the first article!)

  • 'The year we reinvented the truth'
  • 'Truth through many tasks'
  • 'Truth in the selfie era'
  • 'You need politics to discover truth' 

Now, what on earth does that mean? Have we all realized the Truth already, at least most of us? And are we grappling with the aftermath of Truth? (Now, I don't mean there's just one big Truth out there...like TRUTH...used it that way just for the ease of it!) I, on the other hand feel most of us haven't realised the essential truths of these times and are hence leading distorted lives. So, I got curious and went ahead to know what it was all about. Just started going through the first article and the content felt really heavy. The article felt more like a show-case of author's vocabulary and his grip on big concepts. Was it because I lost touch with the paper that I started to feel that way or was the article really written in a deviant way...I don't know, but I had no mood whatsoever to go through other articles. So, I stopped with the first one abruptly! (Infact, the titles themselves were so repelling. When I saw the fourth title, I asked myself, "Really? Did I read it right? Was it 'distort' or 'discover'? Or was that sarcasm?)

If you too feel the same way going through the first write-up, don't trouble yourselves much. This sentence will more or less explain what the author means by 'post-truth' - "If Brexit signalled the post-truth era, Donald Trump’s victory was its definitive arrival."

Whatever that 'post-truth' was supposed to mean, for now, like many others before me, I'm disillusioned with the word 'truth', so I will stop here and allow you to explore further as per your interest and energy. But, if you haven't already come across this word, I'd like to take credit for introducing that to you! That was all today's post meant to do! :-)

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*I stopped reading 'The Hindu' or for that matter any sort of news since last August. Information was not interesting any more to me. It was all the same...knowing it or not knowing it didn't matter. My Dad started complaining, "Nobody reads the paper these days. It goes into the racks just the way it arrives! And nobody even cares to keep the paper in the racks at the end of the day. It just keeps piling on sofa, if I stop caring about it! I will stop the paper!" He says he is addressing that to everybody (including himself), but those statements only hit me (my brothers just ignore it as usual) and I respond - "Now Dad, for God's sake, please don't start complaining as if a kid has stopped doing her homework! I'm older than that and I will read it if I really want to read it anyway! And you are not going to stop paper even if nobody is reading it. How many times should I explain my logic? We spend a thousand easily when we go out for lunch, so why not some 250/- on newspaper for a month! Even if I gain one important piece of information a month, the cost that goes into it is justified. For instance that piece of info the other day on Nagarjunsagar being part of....."

Infact, once before that my Dad even stopped the paper. I was like how can anybody in the home be so indifferent to my words and needs. I blackmailed them - "Whichever home I reside at, will get 'The Hindu'. I'm not gonna stay here if you stop the paper. Tell me, should I leave this house so that I can realize my basic freedom to newspaper?" I then got the paper reinstated!




Sunday, January 1, 2017

The Killer Energy!

I think I have spoken quite many times about void and disaster energy already in my blog. But the energy I have been experiencing since the past two months seems to differ a bit. Since I don't maintain any journal apart from this blog, I don't exactly remember when it started and what has been its periodicity. But I can say that the quality of the energy has changed quite a bit.

When I experience this phase, I experience tremendous amount of self-pity and also a lot of grief...infact as if the whole grief of the world is on my shoulders. I cry inconsolably for my state and I can just weep like that non-stop, for say at least ten minutes, as if my heart is poring itself out with no bounds. Weeping used to happen before too, once in a while, but then it wasn't with this kind of intensity. Weeping perhaps brought me solace before, but the weeping of late, feels more like inconsolable vent out.

I gradually realised that during such a phase the energy craves for non-existence. I just don't feel like existing during such phases and I absolutely feel like dying. It's just that I cannot gather my will power to commit such an act, but if I do have will power I might as well commit that. Such would be the grief during those times. I think such is the paradox of that situation...it is due to lack of an integrating spirit and will power that I experience such grief and pain and it is that very deficit which does not allow me to deal with grief and pain in a systematic way. I feel like all parts of me are so disintegrated that I don't feel myself actually. I feel myself more as a spectator of myself, than as my own self...if that makes any sense!

But then, I'm sure you would recollect that most of the features in the last para - like the sensation of dying etc, I had already mentioned that I was experiencing during void and disaster energy phases. But the intensity of this seems to be too much, of late. Sure! I must also mention that I have been experiencing phases of normalcy - peace and calmness as such without any explicit accomplishments - more than ever these days...but when such phases of disaster energy recur, the killer energy is certainly going for the kill. It's becoming quite a nightmare to experience this.

The normalcy is feeling better and better and the killer energy getting worser and worser. I'm just waiting for this (-> recurrence of killer-energy phase) to end soon!